In the thirty-ninth year of his reign Asa was afflicted with a disease in his feet. Though his disease was severe, even in his illness he did not seek help from the Lord, but only from the physicians.

‭‭2 Chronicles‬ ‭16‬:‭12‬ ‭NIV‬‬

I’m no king of Judah, but my feet have been in pain for a decade with peripheral neuropathy.

General and specialist physicians across the medical spectrum have no healing solutions so I take pain management meds morning and night to make mere walking bearable.

I have ascribed countless huge biblical events to sovereign acts of God, unexplained by human reasoning but still cry in pain at the mere touch of bedsheets on my feet.

That my condition is not yet healed despite a decade of prayer to the Omnipotent, I rest and endure in knowledge that He is able but not yet willing, otherwise I’d be back playing softball and running around with my grandsons.

Sometimes accepting that God’s plan, purpose or will means not now, not yet, or perhaps not ever in this life is itself the divine purpose enacted in my suffering.

Not my will, but yours be done.

There’s a reason for everything and while my finite knowledge may not yet understand, I trust in God with millions of afflicted others whose unwavering faith in the unknown awaits the one day we will, indeed, know and understand and we finally all be pain free forever.