Over the years so many products and people have offered promises to completely change my life, by now I should rightfully be only a shell of the man I once was. However, the only thing I’ve found to be 100% effective in creating lasting change with a five star rating over billions of evidence-based case studies is the taking of one free sample of life in Christ for which I’ve since become an enthusiastic ambassador.

Be humbly confident in who God created you to be.

A favorite leadership podcaster, Craig Groeschel, posted this and I paused to check if I believed him.

I listen to a dozen different podcasts every day through which I have learned a ton about life, love, leadership and a bunch of random facts to impress others if ever inclined.

But this one made me take pause.

At 63, I’m disappointed.

I know that by my final breath, I may have filled my purpose in being born but might not be fulfilled in doing so. I have way too many unwritten stories, a couple impossible reconciliations yet to make, and more refinements in my character than time on my hands will ever permit.

Be humbly confident in who God created you to be.

I’ve few problems with the humility part but zero self-confidence that I’m anywhere close to the summit of achieving who I was created to be.

But does anyone?

Living is full of unfinished business, and I’m confident of only one thing, that unfinished business may be just what keeps us moving on.

The mind is a terrible thing.

The places it takes you for answers unknown can be to the most terrifying of scenarios.

As sentient beings we have extraordinarily low thresholds for ignorance, ambiguity and uncertainty, often prone to crazy possibilities which, in the moment, seem eerily more satisfying than no explanation at all.

But behind this problem is the actual one, a condition which reminds us of our humanity. Essentially, a control issue.

God only knows the truth of this.

Read that again, because therein lies both the answer and the solution all wrapped into one.

If God is omniscient and all-knowing, it’s the first sign that we aren’t. That’s not our job.

Today, this is where I am.

I needed to write my thoughts down. That’s how I work out tough times and reel myself back to sanity.

It pours from my pores

And drips from my lips

This sweat is profuse

From my nips to my hips.

The drenching continues

No matter my pose

If it doesn’t stop soon

I’ll need to change clothes.

Water in, water out

Now I’m peeing a river

This summer’s too hot

I’d much rather shiver!